Here's to trying new things:)
As my life is swirling in a hundred different directions on a consistent basis, I find myself just thinking about life, the nuances of it, and how God fits into it in my life and in general.
Things I KNOW:
1) I believe in one true Almighty God -Father, Son and Holy Spirit.
2) I struggle internally with many things.
3) I am a night owl, but seem to always have to get up early - which drives me nuts.
4) I love movies and how they typically make me think about random theological/social/relational issues
5) I work full time in a job that is just that...my job.(although I really like all the people I work with)
6) I want with all my heart to be a good godly wife and mother some day.
7) I am BLESSED to have amazing relationships with several good, healthy, godly mentors
8) I have lived on my own for about 6 years and am still struggling with budgets and keeping up with everything.
9) I can't explain how much I love and adore the Youth that I work with at my church.
10) I would not be here today if it weren't for God's grace and my wonderful Pastors(mentors, and second parents) Jeff and Jeri Stupar and their love, support, and encouragement - I love them with all my heart!
I really have no idea what direction this will end up taking or if it will even amount to much of anything, but I guess I thought it would at least give me a place to "talk things through" with myself...ha!
Seriously, at this point I am not intending to promote this at ALL to anyone.
So on this first night I am sitting at home on my comfy couch eating chex mix and thinking of how a) I am tired and want to go to sleep, b) I still have to finish assembling the bake sale items for tomorrow morning, and c) how I want - slash that - NEED God to give me His eyes and heart for the broken and isolated people of this world - especially those with whom I have contact every Sunday in the comfort of my church family.
I do not say "family" lightly - I have struggled(and still do sometimes) with the institution of family and what that really means, but that is a topic for another day. I really do feel very blessed for all of the wonderful leaders at RiverPark Community Church, and my friends and co-laborers for Christ. I know 95% of them by name, but I want that number to be higher. I also want to not JUST know their names, I want to be in the crux of everyday life - the good the bad and the crazy - with them. I want to be more. I don't want to settle for what I would consider the minimum of just knowing their names.
Now I just need to figure out what to do about all of that - or should I say, "What GOD wants me to do about that". :)
